A couple weeks ago, J took me out on a date day! Despite my poor health (was on the mend for bronchitis) I found myself going through a whirlwind of different emotions from shock, joy and wonder. He surprised me with tickets to shows that were part of the of the PuSH festival – An international performing arts festival in Vancouver known for groundbreaking, international and critically acclaimed work from artists of different disciplines.
The first show we watched was “Bullet Catch” by Rob Drummond. (Photo by Niall Walker)
There are varying degrees of reviews for this performance, but the one I caught was brilliant, not because of the grand trick at the end, but by the grasp of emotional tension within this show. Rob Drummond tells the tale of William Wonder and his death at the attempt of the Bullet Catch (catching a fired bullet into your mouth) Majority of the show was of this narrative and extends to a deeper level by having the audience take their thoughts and examine their lives. He asked for a volunteer, goes through a few magic tricks and mind reading exercise that clearly impresses the audience. But for many of us cynics, we delighted in knowing these tricks as he offered them in the show due to a show of hands that obliged. You’re probably wondering – what was the point? There is criticism that this show was a poorly done magic show. Let us not forget – this is a theatre performance with magic. Hence, why I could afford to appreciate it for what it was. The most significant moment I felt (and this was what drove me to tears) was when Rob asked his volunteer to take a gun and shoot it into this mouth. He had spent the last hour, divulging into the volunteer’s life, knowing what she stood for and ultimately sharing her soul with the audience. Who does that in an hour and 15?!? The heavy silence, the look of sadness in her eyes and that pivotal moment of choice, was what moved me. She couldn’t do it. And the audience was asked whether they would like him to proceed – some walked out. I was close to leaving, but J stopped me. Why miss the show’s headline? He explained.
And at the count to 3 and the drop of his hand, the gun fired and……
Check out “Bullet Catch” at the Revue Stage, Arts Club Theatre Company.
Show only running until Feb 7! Don’t miss it.
“Thrill seekers should go for the danger, thinkers for the philosophy, theatrical types for the drama, those of a curious disposition can go for the magic. And for all you cynics, just go for the Bullet Catch.”
Throughout our lives we allow ourselves to be inundated with junk that fills our mind. How many times have we allowed ourselves to go through days when we cannot even remember what we did, because we’ve done it so many times that everything falls into a mundane, mindless routine?
Do you ever wake up feeling so fully aware of where you are in that moment?
Often times, we struggle to roll out of bed, grab our morning coffee and let the day play out.
I attended a workshop which there was an exercise that was considered a mind cleaning technique. What is it?
Well first acknowledge what holds you back from being fully present – isn’t it that we allow things to cloud our minds such as worry, insecurities, fear, problems, etc – when these things fill our mind we lose sight of feeling in control and in charge of our thoughts and our actions.
‘Be careful how you think, your life is shaped by your thoughts’ – Proverbs 4:23 TEV
There is a truth to what they say when it comes to mind over matter. The power of a sound mind makes way for will and determination to conquer any fear, pain and doubt. In times today, we grow up facing situations that force us to define what we can or cannot achieve. Whether it is grades in school, self esteem, pressure to make critical decisions, the media; there is always something that we all have to measure up to – and because expectation is set, once they are not met, it makes way for us to accept that we are lesser than what we can be and we begin to think like this. Thus, our thoughts affect our actions and sadly feeds our doubts, fears, insecurities and amplified in worries. As Albert Einstein once said, ” We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.”
But do you know who is a great example of someone whose mind is pure and free that it seems like they go through life like they are invincible?
We are in awe watching them grow up – bright-eyed, full of potential, fearless and firm in their conviction whatever it may be. I remember the last time I felt like I could conquer anything, it was in high school.
Then I hit first year college and my confidence fell. Transition from high school to college wasn’t all that easy – add an ugly breakup in there, well then you start feeling helpless. But you push on through, because you are supposed to be an adult now and you move on the next until it becomes a practice, but not exactly a first choice.
So how do you start having presence of mind? By removing the following words from your vocabulary: impossible, fear, doubt, worry, limitation and excuses. All these things start from our ego, which most of the times hurts our chances at giving ourselves a shot or any hope for that matter. Once we start believing in this, we feel as though we can conquer the world once again.
But what if we start falling into it again, that downward spiral of negativity in our mind?
What is the solution?
Think happy thoughts.
Consider it positive reinforcement – remember the happiest moment (s) in your life and immediately weight drops and you feel lighter. Again, power of thought 😉
Do you know that if you do this for at least 15 seconds every day, you’re already starting to clear out the junk and freeing your mind?
So believe that you have that power over thought and choose to be optimistic for ultimately it allows you to be in the now. ‘So do not worry about tomorrow; it will have enough worries of its own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings.’ Matthew 6:34 TEV
I wish this post was about overcoming anxiety but I’m going to be honest, it’s a bit challenging.
When I feel suffocated, I have this urge to get out or go away somehow.
I’ve come to terms that I have anxiety issues that come and go, but sometimes question if it’s part of something bigger.
Ever since last night, I’ve been carrying this anxious feeling and find myself carrying it more and more lately.
You see, it does not particularly help that I am an overtly emotional person – not in a dramatic type of way, but more so, going the extremes with emotion. Think of 0 -100 REAL fast.
With a culmination of thinking for the future career wise, pressure from losing weight, dealing with betrayal, missing my boyfriend; I have too many tabs open. I get swallowed up by own self doubt and fears, that I am almost crippled in making a decision – which in turns fuel the anxiety problems I already have.
Based on things I’ve been reading to cope with this, I realized that I haven’t been indulgent in my time to focus inward. I haven’t really brought myself to challenge these doubts, to believe in myself and overcome the struggle of losing the person I was over a year ago. Or this largely has to do with the fact that I’m out of school and my boyfriend isn’t around.
Fortunately, I’ll be going over to Victoria this weekend, Thanksgiving is around the corner, vacation in December and before you know, the new year.
You know what?
Thinking about those, I feel better already 🙂