Doesn’t this picture seems like it sounds like “OOOO OUCH THAT HURTS” ?
TBH this was previously my face for the eww-creeper-get-a-way-from-me, but I think this image goes perfectly with this blog entry .
I ended a friendship last night. The first one I’ve terminated in my early adult life. The situation is sticky, as she is now dating my ex-boyfriend, which wasn’t even the issue. The problem dealt with the fact that the news came out via Instagram instead of the good ‘ol heart to heart honesty session.
When we had talked, it seemed like things were going to be hopeful (for our friendship) but unfortunately it took a little more self reflection to come to terms with the truth.
There are people in your life that will hurt you – maybe even some of your closest friends. In this case, one of my oldest friends decided she could not bring herself to be honest and let me know. She explained that she just didn’t know how to tell me.
That’s the thing about guilt, it makes you a coward.
But in the end, it comes down to the full understanding of – do I value this friendship enough to be honest?
It saddens me that throughout the year that we have hung out and talked, not once did she ever bring it up. Definitely had me evaluate where I belonged in this person’s life.
And during church, it came to me.
If my friend cared about our friendship at all, she would have weighed the risk of facing the possibility of a lost friendship due to dishonesty. Her choice to not communicate to me made it very clear.
I feel slightly betrayed as she could have possibly used my heartbreak as a strategy for her own ways…but I’ll never know. And the fact that she was aware of others that have broken my trust and failed friendships. Many could argue otherwise, but it is very easy for people to take a side and say things when it is not happening to them. Sadly, not many consider themselves in other people’s shoes before taking up a bias.
All I know is this – if they did not value your friendship, it is worth having them out of your life, as no one deserves anything less than meaningful. These days, it is extremely rare to find pure gems in friends, so for one to take the other for granted, it is nothing more than a shallow companionship. The lesson in church was very timely – boiled down to accepting situations like these as potential “teachers” in life. The acceptance that these things are meant to happen for you to grow as a person and that nothing is more reassuring than knowing your decision brings peace of mind.
All friendships that end are sad, but always remember that it opens the door for a more worthwhile love in your life.
Setting Goals for the last few months of the 2014 year.
So I am actually out of school this semester as I missed registration, coming back from vacation. Though I’ve been back a month now, I realized that I still have not added any time for productivity while I’m in this slump. I have a few goals I’ve wanted to achieve but done nothing but procrastinate (My biggest weakness – eep!) but I’m going to change that.
Here are my Nov-Dec goals:
1- Get my license (Sadly, I’m near my mid-20’s and have put this off forever)
I have gotten used to commuting/using transit as I’ve always generally worked at places that were transit accessible. Working downtown at my old job, it was actually more practical. However, when J (the boyf) had to drive to Everett (2 Hours drive) and to Kamloops (4 Hours drive) back to back – I really felt him hurting. We’d had to stop a few times so he can stick in a nap or two, poor guy. So I decided to give it another shot and hope it works!
2- Train myself to be a morning person. I LOVE sleep. Who doesn’t? At times, my schedule fills up to a point where I chase hours for sleep. But as I’ve read from Business Insider , there’s so much more I can accomplish (like spending more time on this blog and eating a proper breakfast!)
3- Go back to being a pescetarian. I was in the best shape when I met J, but of course naturally in a relationship, you gain what is most commonly known as the “love pounds” My body does not bounce back as fast as before and I’ve gained quite the tummy. Now even if I don’t get to flat tummy body, I felt the best when I inhabited the pescetarian diet and there’s so much good stuff to eat!
4- Learn basic Mandarin. Quay-le, Quay-le errthang y’all! I have been doing weekly Wednesday dinners with my boyf’s parents where I teach English and learn Mandarin as well.
5- Dedicate at least 2 blog posts a week to start on this as a blogging nu-hoob
I recently started getting back to surrounding myself with things that inspire me; great company, an opulent showcase, and a new favorite blog
Cannot wait to share them soon!
As defined by Google:
I have a handful go-to blogs that I visit frequently. You see when I was slacking off in BCIT, I was obsessed with fashion blogs and went through a phase of harmless stalking. From that, I became a devout reader of a few. Mostly because there were content that at least spoke to me, more than their beautiful outfits. I have an admiration for this one particular blog that I had followed for about 3 years now and always wondered….”Where the heck did you get all the money to dress like that?” then fast forward later… there is a post about badly managing finances due to a shopping addiction . I will admit I give them HUGE kudos, for being honest and upfront. I often thought there was a disconnect between the pictures of the outfits vs the content I read. I LOVE who she is, no nonsense, beautifully inserts her curse words and pours out heart and soul….but with an outfit post. Unfortunately, it leaves me with a “humble brag” impression, where she shows off her outfits, but expresses herself differently on text. Being human, I will understand enough that she has admitted personal self doubts and I guess I shouldn’t totally crucify over things like that.
I cannot say it any better than J-Law herself.
(reactiongifs.com is the best)
Based on that, right off the bat, I am neither a fashion or beauty blog.
Disclaimer: BUT may or may not have a spur of vanity here and there….come oonnn let’s be honest,
we all have our moments 😉
This blog showcases the different colors to my personality rainbow. Welcome.